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those silly mood thingies here on livejournal.. i have never used them and i probably never will. not as long as there are words..
sad. melancholic. pensive..

my grandmother is not doing too bad but she's very annoyed that she can't do a lot of things on her own anymore. i could tell her to calm down and be happy that she's still alive, but i won't. if i were in that situation i think i would get angry too. just like her i would be grateful for all the help i was getting, but at the same time hate the loss of independence and privacy..

last weekend i also learned that the mother of a dear friend is in hospital and another friend told me that his brother just found out that he is hiv infected.

l i f e is good
at times even very good
but every now and then it so unbelievably sucks that it's just not fair

we're possibly better off not knowing what life has in store for us..



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Oct. 10th, 2006 03:28 am (UTC)
I am glad your grandmother is not doing too bad. It is frustrating. I have been there before with my father's heart problems and now with his Alzheimer's. For him there are good and bad days. For my mom, there is much frustration. We try to help where we can.

I agree fully with your last observations. I hope happy times visit you again sometime soon.

Oct. 13th, 2006 12:14 am (UTC)
it is often said that - apart from the early stages of alzheimer's - it is worse for the family than for the patient himself. i'm not so sure if that is true. i mean, this disease not only makes you forget so many things, but it can totally change your personality, the person you once were..

ok i'm not an expert on the subject, but i can't believe patients would not notice these changes themselves..
Oct. 13th, 2006 07:45 am (UTC)
In my dad's case, he knows he has a problem. He even agreed when we took his keys away. It is ironic that he remembers that he has that "forgetful" disease. As for personality changes, he is just mellower than he was, thankfully not drastic changes.
Oct. 10th, 2006 03:44 am (UTC)
c'est la vie. even if you knew what life had in store for you, would you change it? could you change it? and what if, in the process of trying to change it, you ended up fulfilling it? enjoy it as it comes, i say. like you said, at least we're alive for the time being...
Oct. 13th, 2006 12:38 am (UTC)
if you ask people: what would you do if you knew you only had a few years left to live? a lot of them would say quit my job and travel the world or something like that. that's what they say, but would they really? and if traveling is so important to them, why not start right now? yes, there's lack of money, responsibilities, the unknown future.. :p
Oct. 13th, 2006 02:52 am (UTC)
i agree. if you have a passion for something, you'll find a way to make time for it or include it in your life somehow.
Oct. 10th, 2006 04:48 pm (UTC)
"we're possibly better off not knowing what life has in store for us.."

Wise words. I completely agree.

Take care of yourself.
Oct. 10th, 2006 06:58 pm (UTC)
im glad to hear from you here. i hope you manage to get some de-stress time in for yourself soon. i sense you are tiring. if you were closer, id come over and fix a nice dinner and try to distract you with some stories from my life. you'd probably get bored pretty quickly (no garantees!)

sometimes i wish i did know what life had in store for us..... but then again, if i did..... i may not have such a positive outlook being so blind as i am now :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 01:01 am (UTC)
i usually don't get bored easily. i guess it depends on how exciting your life is and how good a storyteller you are.. :)

i've never been an optimist, but over the years i've learned not to worry so much about things i can't change anyway..
Oct. 11th, 2006 12:56 pm (UTC)
Sending you warm thoughts, hugs and positive vibrations.

Oct. 12th, 2006 12:11 am (UTC)
tamar i am new on live journal and i added you first. :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 01:04 am (UTC)
well i guess you have to start somewhere.. :p

& welcome
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